Eyes Wide Open

Some time ago I came across GIVE HER LIFE, and organization on a mission to educate the world about the  gender selections practices  going on throughout the world. I was excited to help, excited to be a part of something big, to change the world, to leave my mark. I was invited to do research, to share what I'd learned through the gift of gab in the form of a blog...

Well, it's been a while. Hasn't it? Life gets you busy, and with having a new daughter of my own, it's busy and full of constant little adjustments...she changes and grows everyday.

But if I'm honest with myself, I'd have to say it's more than that. It's more than everyday life getting in the way of what I thought would be my grand entrance into the cause to irradiate gender selection practices on a global scale. How heroic of me, right? Not exactly.

Here's what's actually going on: I'm overwhelmed. I. Am. Overwhelmed. By the problem. By the HUGE-ness of it, by the heartbreaking reality of it, by the future that lay ahead for this generation of children. And now, most difficult of all, as a mom, when I gaze into the absolute perfection I find in my daughter's eyes I am spellbound, and then I think 200 million smiles, 200 millions little hearts full of love...missing.

And then I stop.

I stop reading. I stop writing. I stop researching. Because it's hard. I don't want to believe it. I want to shut my eyes, but I can't.

I think whenever we are faced with a problem so big, or a tragedy so intense that we become overwhelmed, it's important for us to remember that "Rome wasn't built in a day." Cliche, yes. But I'm gonna run with it.

I will keep reading. I will keep writing. I will keep researching. I will take breaks to cry, to collect myself, and refuel.I'll take baby step. Small changes can add up to a world of difference. If I write about what I read, then you read what I write, then we both DO something, even something small, maybe our children and our children's children will look back as adults and say, "Remember when the world was a scary place? No...no, I don't remember."

I'm in it to win it, folks. I don't know where this will lead, but I'm going down the rabbit hole. It will be hard, but it will be worth it. Won't you join me?